Attuned to His Leading

We decided to go to a cafe tonight, but the only cafe open late is Starbucks...boo. It's so crowded in here and it's so cliche. But eh, it's open until 11p.  So I guess tit for tat.

Kenneth and I have our splitter and listening to Worship U and it's refreshing.

How crazy is it when you get in to the word and everything just starts aligning up with your life, your questions, doubts, and fears??  So I just got done reading the chapter "Lifting Our Veil" in Sue Boldt's Refresh and Colossians 2.  Girrrrl lemmmmme tellll you!

Well the Lifting Our Veil is all about the purity that comes from God.  There are so many times I catch myself having thoughts not good or noble and I feel guilty, or somehow I have sinned.  However, Sue says that it doesn't have to be that way!  We are in process of lifting the veil of sin and being freed from that captivity.  Instead we should do as 1 Corinthians 10:5

"5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." (NIV)
I must learn how to receive the fact that everything that comes from God is "pure, peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy, and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy." (James 3:17)  If anything I feel or think does not feel like those described above is not from God.  And now I need to take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ!  It's so refreshing to know that as we stumble and fail in life, there is renewed faith in my Savior.  *sigh*  She says if I learn to do this the Lord is "rerouting and renewing my brain patterns."  Once broken, I can allow the Holy Spirit to dig deeper into the real caves in my life and release more and more so I can obey Him more and more.

THEN! In Colossians 2, I love how it talks about not being held captive to those that try to hold me accountable.  That's one thing I hate is being held accountable!  That's probably not the best way of thinking of it...but it's true.  God says;

"6-7 My counsel for you is simple and straightforward: Just go ahead with what you’ve been given. You received Christ Jesus, the Master; now live him. You’re deeply rooted in him. You’re well constructed upon him. You know your way around the faith. Now do what you’ve been taught. School’s out; quit studying the subject and start living it! And let your living spill over into thanksgiving." (Colossians 2:6-7 MSG)
Let that stuff flow!  Forget the rules! Forget the traditions!  Just live!  Man....how amazing is this?! I feel like Paul is writing directly to me!  That's what I've been wanting to do for so long..just live!  Not worry about those around me, what they think, what the rules are, what needs to be done weekly, monthly, etc.... Of course I can't live everyday like that, but I shouldn't let it rule me.  Then he goes on in vs.16-19, "So don’t put up with anyone pressuring you in details of diet, worship services, or holy days. All those things are mere shadows cast before what was to come; the substance is Christ.
18-19 Don’t tolerate people who try to run your life,"

I think this is one of my deep dark secrets that God is trying to lift up and release from me.  I've been trying to run from this, that I haven't had a chance to face it. I stay away from people so they don't hold me accountable, where as I need to face it and not let those impure thoughts run my life! Man oh man....amazing.

In other news ---- another mission trip is coming up in June!  More details to come, but Costa Rica is looking like there is a need for us.  Praying about it...pray for me.... =)