The Deep Things of God

Book: Refresh, chapter: Truly Free
Colossians 4

Throughout my 31 years of life, (omg, 31...a few weeks ago I told someone I was 30!) there ha been a lot of suppressed emotion and dark lies hidden beneath me.  Attempting to show perfection to the world and at the same time failing at it.  I have touched on a few of these past emotions, praying about it, confessing some of it.  However, I believe the bigger lie that I believe is that no one wants to hear it.  So instead all of the pain and suffering are tucked away in a little box.  I also believe that my past is petty and I should just let it go.  But instead of really letting it go and relinquishing it to Christ, I have just covered it with other emotions and memories.

Sue says I need to dig deep.  Find out all of the insecurities, the trials, the hurt, the lies and let it out. I feel like I'm going to start balling out of control right in the middle of Java Ocean Cafe and I haven't even thought of anything specific...yet.

This sucks because I know I need to open up and share these coffins with others, but it's so damn difficult!  I've spent my whole life listening to everyone else, that I don't even know how to do that!  Even when I start I end up stopping myself because I feel like I'm talking too much.

I do want freedom from all of this.

She quoted Neil T. Anderson - "...it's a truth encounter."

That's awesome!  I want a truth encounter!  I want to experience a release!
"When the Lord speaks His Word into your soul and spirit - it brings healing." Wow!  I want that tooooo!

I love this verse...

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him" (1 Corinthians 2:9 NLT)
I can't even start to think about what He has planned for me once I just submit to Him and the spirit! I keep trying to be the one in control and GIRL! It does not work like that!  I know this is a process and it takes progress..instant results don't happen here.  Let's face it...God is peeling away slowly at the thick strong horrible layers of sin and lies.  This is amazing stuff!