Flower the Truth

When it rains it pours. There are some definite obstacles that are attempting to penetrate my relationship with God.  I feel anxious, out of control, and sad.  I have gone through every emotion so quickly in the past few days.  My body and mind can't keep up.  At the end of the day the Lord is saying; I got you.  One thing at a time my daughter.  He is literally the only one that can understand everything that I feel and think.  There is so much going on right now that inside I feel helpless, but I know that I'm not.  It's so difficult to put this all in the Lord's hand.  I know that He will prevail, but it's something deep inside that wants to handle this on my own.  What a sin.  What slap to the face of God.  His word is all that I need yet, I am sitting here attempting to think it all out with my own understanding.

This brings me to the love chapter.  We sometimes can overlook these verses, but if we really dig deep inside and analyze every word it means so much more.

1 Corinthians 13 The Message (MSG) 
If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. 
2 If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing.
3-7 If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.
Love never gives up. 
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
8-10 Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.
From what this is saying - I can do everything in my power and say I have faith - but if LOVE is not the core of it all - then it means nothing.  Love should be the core of all faith, all we say, all we do, and all we think.  It should all be in love.

I have some struggles going on in my life and I need to remember that love matters.  It's not all about just 'getting it done' or 'making it happen'.  Love softens the edges of everything we do.  It makes it light and attainable no matter how difficult it may be.  Lord help me understand how to do everything in love.