I consistently struggle with the whole 'not worrying about tomorrow' thing.


Instead of worry about the things in this world that need to be 'won', 'obtained,' or 'accomplished', my only focus should be Jesus.  In everything I should do, it should be to pursue my maker.  Rather than looking to Jesus, skip over Him, so that He can do stuff for me, I need to be doing stuff specifically for Him and to accomplish His will.

I am so worried about today, what needs to get done, tomorrow at work, Wednesday closing, Tucson promotion, WEDDING, it's like - who cares?  In all of that where is Jesus?  Is Jesus being pursued through all of this?  Is it all of this for His glory?

Geez, I still think I can do everything on my own.  I looked in the mirror today and every racing thought was going through my mind.  And then I just stopped and said - who cares??  My purpose should just to be fulfill His will and do all things in His glory.  Yes?  Why do I have to make things difficult by trying to ensure that everything will go in way I want it to or it will go smoothly?  Who the hell am I to think I have any control of anything?  I want to have a deeper and meaningful relationship with my hero and savior Jesus Christ.  It's the only thing that will give me happiness.

I am understanding though - old habits die hard!!!

My prayer today: Lord, you are who I pursue; nothing and no one else. Please give me comfort in knowing that this world is to fulfill your glory and what I do everyday should include you. Thank you for having mercy on me.  I am grateful for your love, and teach me everyday what it is to focus on you and your love for me.

Oh, the joys of those who do not
    follow the advice of the wicked,
    or stand around with sinners,
    or join in with mockers.
But they delight in the law of the Lord,
    meditating on it day and night.
They are like trees planted along the riverbank,
    bearing fruit each season.
Their leaves never wither,
    and they prosper in all they do.
But not the wicked!
    They are like worthless chaff, scattered by the wind.
They will be condemned at the time of judgment.
    Sinners will have no place among the godly.
For the Lord watches over the path of the godly,
    but the path of the wicked leads to destruction.